My Halloween costume represents the transformation this Harvest has left me with.
I chose to wear the butterfly costume, as I describe in my Halloween video on MilfyMarie.com–Trick or Tit. The butterfly to me symbolizes change and rebirth. And I am celebrating the freedom and growth from this change, a new beauty. A new normal. As fall draws to an end, we are presented with questions challenging our very core spiritual values. Where do we stand? I’ve been searching for my moral compass for quite some time now. On this journey I have made many mistakes and fallen short of expectations. I’ve felt lonely at times and in other moments was suffocating from the attention of strangers. I’ve felt so much love and acceptance from my fellow man throughout the completion of this project, that is MilfyMarie. My fans are absolutely the most supportive people for our cause, and the most loving, respectful individuals.
My problem is this. As I venture deeper into ANR and BDSM, the line between my personal and professional lives draws thin and fades–and I am left with no reality, no “normal” anymore…just pure mania, impulsiveness, and lust. I’m really concerned that I am battling a sex addiction, brought to my attention by some concerned friends who “intervened” on my part. Maybe there is some truth to this. That I use sex as a means for healing. When it shouldn’t be used for anything. Nobody should ever be used. Sex is biological. Sex is sex. Don’t overcomplicate it, don’t overthink it. Sex is not affection. Sex is not one with love always.
Sex is passionate, deep, wide open and the mind is waiting to be taken and divulged in ecstasy.
I love to really MILK a cock…that is, make it drip out slowly. Without even touching it. The power and control over the mind–it’s more than sex. I take it to the next level and I’m not sure if that is healthy or not. I just live this life every day. Trying to run a business as a single mother in trying times. Editing, Shooting, Producing, Directing, Writing, Marketing–one day, will all rest on my shoulders.
Will I be responsible enough to handle my desires with diligence?
I have a tendency to misuse the powers God has given me. I have a tendency towards seduction.
Do you guys sometimes worry if a fetish can be, unhealthy?
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